2004-12-28

I Wanna Love Ya and Treat Ya Right

Is this what death feels like? I'm just down because he is not able to talk on the phone. The reason is chores. Fucking chores. I was writing a letter to him when he called about how much I miss him.

And how much it hurts to be without him. And how my heart hurts just thinking about him and being without him. I know if and when we break up I'll look back on moments like these and regret it. Then I'll say it was worth the time because I wasn't gonna do anything with my life at the moment anyways.

But I don't want him to break up with me, I don't want to break up with him.

I've been rotting in these clothes for days. I haven't had an excuse to shower, nobody has invited me over, I am lazy and I just wanna fall asleep with him. I'm so crazy, probably.

One of these days I'm going to cheer up and the course of my life is going to change and it'll be weird. I just can't see it happening, though.

turbogeek at 8:52 p.m.

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