2004-11-08

And You Will Be Changed

I was in a really weird mood today. I felt like going to the theatre and making out with someone or something. Call it horny or whatever, I just don't know what was going on with it.

I kept thinking of ways I could of left school today. I really didn't wanna be there and just wanted to go outside and escape. I wanted to be alone or something. I wanted to drive. Really far away. Just speed down a abandoned road and just drive until I stop.

I wonder where I'd go.

In resource, I kept thinking about Clark and how I miss him. He should be here in Michigan and not in Oregon. I guess he is happy with the life is living as a high school dropout and that's great. He doesn't have to come back for my benefit. Although he has the most interesting things to say.

Dana keeps babbling about stuff I can't understand.

And I'm listening to Radiohead. Exit Music is what I'm in the mood for so I'm listening to it.

My skin itches. Tomorrow we have to dress up like we're from the 20s. My clothes are going to be more 60s because my mom wouldn't take me anywhere to buy anything.

I miss the summer so bad already. I hate the winter and the cold and it just feels too weird for me to switch seasons. I could look on the Venice Beach webcam right now and it'd probably be at sunset. Nope, it's 5:19 pm there and it's dark already. It's probably warm though. If I went there now it wouldn't be the same as when Jim went there.

I dream too much.

And I don't want to fucking go to school tomorrow. Just because I don't want to. I should just never even set foot into the building. I should go to Clark's mom's house and hang out there or go to a field and just listen to THE GREAT GIG IN THE SKY BY PINK FLOYD and get spaced out and feel numb and then it'll start raining and it'll wake me up.

Sometimes I blame myself for the death of my dog. I pulled on his leash too hard when he wanted to go someplace else

turbogeek at 8:57 p.m.

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