2004-09-09

Dark Is Light Enough

I'm at my friend Owen's locker and see someone to my left, then I whisper to Owen to look behind him. A boy struts past us looking optimistic and straight forward.

MICHAEL is BACK, bitches. I freaked out, telling everyone but keeping it hidden on my face that I missed him over the summer. When 6th hour came, homework class was on and I kept looking at him like always. He looked at me sometimes too and it made the whole class laugh by his sly wit.

Today was good. Except, I feel like nobody cares what I say and Liz and Lacie are just totally consumed with each other and I never feel like they want to tell me stuff. And there isn't really anybody else to hang out with.

Or nobody is coming up to me and hanging out. Nobody can relate to me and I can't relate to anyone.

I'm an outcast. Last night I was crying and telling my dad about how I told my mom I can't relate to her when we went shopping and she just shrugged it off. Then, they got in a fight because dad didn't get the situation striahgt and he yelled at me. I went into the bathroom to wash my face and clean my tears off and dad said not to cry, then I couldn't stop so he said "Go to motherfucking sleep".

So I went upstairs crying like crazy and heard my dad say "SOME FUCKED UP FAMILY WE HAVE" and I told Heather that I didn't want to live anymore.

She said "Oh Jen, don't say that". But I can't help it.

turbogeek at 3:43 p.m.

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